Over the past month or more, I have been talking
about healing from a dangerous and/or pathological love relationship. The
chronic stress disorder and often Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) that
occurs from the damage done in the relationship requires a serious change in
lifestyle in order to heal.
We have been talking about those changes – what needs to change physically,
emotionally, and spiritually. In Part 5, we discussed the negative ‘worldview’
effects resulting from pathological exposure. The negative worldview impacts
how you now see your post-pathological relationship world. This includes how
you NOW see yourself, others, the world, your future, and God.
One of the seriously undertreated effects of
pathological love relationship exposure is the healing of the personal
worldview. The untreated aspects mimic PTSD symptoms with increases in
depression, anxiety, fear, isolation, dread of the future and other similarly
related PTSD side effects. Healing your worldview is critical to a healthy
future.
Another often untreated effect of pathological
relationship exposure is the ‘unconscious adopting of the pathological’s
worldview.’ Not only was your worldview altered from the damage done to you IN
the relationship, but your worldview was also altered from the damage done to
you THROUGH the pathological. One of the unrelenting side effects is the
‘learned experience’ of seeing the world through his eyes.
One of the things that makes pathologicals
pathological is the effect of their pathology on how they see themselves in
relation to the world and others. Pathologicals are noted for their over/under
sense of themselves, over/under opinion of others, and their unusual view of
what the world should do for them.
While you may not have adopted these exact views
like the pathological, chances are your views have been tainted with the
pathological’s viewpoint. This can include normalizing abnormal behaviors or
dissociating pieces of reality AWAY from you. Normalizing can make womanizing,
over/under employment, drug dealing, alcohol/drug abuse, domestic violence,
lying, cheating, stealing, or other overtly wrong behavior ‘marginal,’ when you
have taken on his view of life and right/wrong. Pathologicals don’t operate by
the rules. They create them for their unique situations and break them for fun.
When your grip on societal boundaries begins to
slip, you have been affected by his view of the world. When his behaviors
become ‘just a little different’ than other people’s or ‘all people are like
this’ – your
worldview has been infiltrated. When you begin to think of other people like he
does, or define others by his warped definitions, when you believe his ‘take’
on things or tell yourself only partial truths so you don’t have to really see
his real self – your worldview has been penetrated.
When you become numb and lethargic to the things he has done, your worldview
has been violated.
This is just one more aspect of your wounded
worldview that needs healing if you are going to recover. A wounded worldview
does not allow for living the gentle life. And the gentle life is probably not
even possible until the way you see yourself, others and the world becomes
‘gentle.’
Pathologicals are harsh. They leave people feeling
irritated, rubbed raw, and chapped. Your interior does not feel ‘gentle’ – it feels rough.
Pathologicals are notoriously negative, so you may
have found your mood, thinking, and reactions to have taken on his negativity.
It’s hard to heal when everything looks like he told you it looked – bad (and it’s all your fault!). It’s
hard to live the gentle life for yourself when your emotions are anything BUT
gentle.
This is the point about the necessity of healing
the worldview – it’s
a critical part of your recovery. Because having been warped by a pathological,
‘HOW you see determines WHAT you see.’
(**If we
can support you in your recovery process, please let us know. The
Institute is the largest provider of recovery-based services for
survivors of pathological love relationships. Information about
pathological love relationships is in our award-winning book, Women Who Love Psychopaths, and is also
available in our retreats, 1:1s, or phone sessions. See the website for
more information.)
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